Dear W,
From time to time, Y. shares with me the exchanges you have together. Yesterday, she told me that you keep a letter I wrote to you about love and that you return to from time to time.
I am glad that you keep this letter that had touched you when you first read it. I am not flattered, I am happy to see that I was able, when I wrote it to you, to be a channel to transmit to you what your heart wanted to tell you through my words.
When I wrote it, I did not simply share my conception of love with you: I felt love for you, and that is what had touched you.
Love is the best channel for establishing communion with ourselves and with other beings. Much better than intellect. We all need love. Perhaps you feel this need even more than others because you tend to think, reflect and analyze too much. My letter, written with love, made the repressed love spring forth from your heart.
We repress love and unconsciously forbid ourselves to live it, because we have been deprived of it in the past and we prefer to forget our deprivation. So we give ourselves rational reasons to justify our deprivation by sometimes telling ourselves that love is a feeling of weakness. In truth, yes, love is felt by the ego as a weakness because it removes the ego’s power of control. And the ego feeds on the control it believes it exercises over our life.
In my letter, I addressed you as if you were right in front of me. Because even though you were physically far away, your real presence is not limited by time and space. In the world of spirit, we are all united. And even though I don’t know your past experiences that constitute your personality, I know what is eternally present in you beyond your personality. That is what was touched by my words. It is your true self that most people don’t see because their gaze stops at the level of your personality.
When you return to my letter, you have the desire to relive that sensation you had when reading it for the first time. Your heart wants fresh love, but your intellect serves it a reheated dish. It is no coincidence that you spoke about it in front of Y., who told me about it, which gave birth in me to the desire to write to you again. Your heart wanted to feel fresh love.
I’m not saying we shouldn’t reread a text that has touched us. Yes, of course we should, but the text can only give you what has already matured in you. It doesn’t offer the same depth of understanding to everyone. It is a mirror that reflects your state of consciousness at the moment. It doesn’t contain a definitive meaning, because the one who reads it evolves. And as he evolves, he finds a deeper meaning in the text.
It was not the words of my letter, but the vibration behind them that touched you. What gave you pleasure was in you; I only awakened it.
True teaching has been compared to the flight of a bird in the sky, which leaves no trace behind it. This means that words that come from the heart and not from the intellect deliver us a message and disappear. Exactly like the address that is written on a mail envelope is valid until the mail reaches its destination; after that, the address has no more utility.
We cannot learn truth, we can immerse ourselves in it. Because truth is not a formula, it is a state of being. That is why in all spiritual traditions, there are regular meetings between people interested in truth. Because the atmosphere that is created by their encounters transforms them from within.
As you know, dear W, truth is in us, but it has been buried under layers of beliefs and concepts. To find it again, we must not learn new things but rather forget what we think we know. And this, in order to return like children. When you were a child, you were closer to truth than now, because you had fewer ideas about things. It is said that the difference between a child and a sage is that the child lives innocently in truth, but is unconscious of it, while the sage consciously rediscovers the freshness and innocence of childhood after having lost them.
I sense that behind your strong personality, you have a tender heart that thirsts. Your personality wants to ”understand” in order to possess truth, your heart wants to ”feel” in order to let itself be possessed by truth. We act as conquerors, when we need to surrender ourselves.